Finally Revealing My Secret | NikkieTutorials: Layers Of Me

After being blackmailed, Nikkie takes control as she prepares for her powerful coming out video, but behind the scenes she is battling with telling her closest friend the truth.
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  1. Amy Monson

    Amy Monson11 sekunder sedan

    You're so Strong...never put your head down

  2. Vera

    Vera2 timmar sedan

    It doesn´t matter with gender you are Nikkie you are yourself

  3. mya west

    mya west5 timmar sedan


  4. Josiah Hendricks

    Josiah Hendricks8 timmar sedan

    Nikkie you are so beautiful and amazing and even before all of this you served as an icon in my life and someone to watch when I needed comfort and make-up tips and help. You're so amazing please never stop being you ❤️

  5. casandra ross

    casandra ross10 timmar sedan

    I love listening to her talk.

  6. jessiejfan23

    jessiejfan2314 timmar sedan

    Thank you for sharing your story 💛

  7. Joy H

    Joy H21 timme sedan

    Ik heb je altijd gezien als een grappige, intelligente, mondige en knappe vrouw. Wie kan het schelen dat je vroeger een ander geslacht had. You go girl. Wees een voorbeeld voor anderen. Ik heb niets dan respect voor jou.

  8. Mary Charlotte Ann Bautista

    Mary Charlotte Ann BautistaDag sedan

    I’ve never thought I’d say this to a person who I didn’t know much except the talent you shows us. Nikki, you don’t owe anything to us. You’re an amazing lady! You deserve every beautiful thing in the world ❤️

  9. Shannon Trujillo

    Shannon TrujilloDag sedan

    I love you Nikki. You’ve always been a woman ❤️

  10. Anthony D

    Anthony DDag sedan

    You posted this on my bi coming out anniversary! Congrats on sharing your full self with the world :) I can't wait to see what you do next

  11. kafukashi

    kafukashiDag sedan

    I'm sorry, your story is absolutely inspiring but can we please talk about the PROFESSIONALISM of this documentaries, its so well constructed i loved that fourth wall(?) break with Linda, amazing

  12. Jule Straub

    Jule StraubDag sedan


  13. Laura Geist

    Laura GeistDag sedan

    Not the power of makeup, the power of me! 💯👏👏👏🥰

  14. Esmée Berlo

    Esmée BerloDag sedan

    Mss is dit een late reactie maar ik hou van jou Nikkie! Toen ik je zag bij wie is de mol dacht ik OMG YES NIKKIEEEEE!!!! En nu ben je open voor iedereen en iedereen houd nogsteeds van jou💋😘

  15. Hgvvv gchgfvv

    Hgvvv gchgfvvDag sedan

    Echt nikki i love youuus so much

  16. Betty Pickle

    Betty PickleDag sedan

    She's 100% female when she saw that rabbit and got so excited that's when i knew she was a girl...

  17. Ana Carolina Neubaner Duque

    Ana Carolina Neubaner Duque2 dagar sedan

    You are a wonderful woman, a wonderful humam being. You inspire me, and i wish you a happy and full of love life

  18. Almein Simoes

    Almein Simoes2 dagar sedan

    Absolutely inspiring!!!

  19. Mercedes Famous Screenwriting

    Mercedes Famous Screenwriting2 dagar sedan

    Well, I am definitely looking at you different...I'm looking at you as the bravest woman and fighter ever. I'm so happy for you are living in your truth. Keep shining!

  20. Nancy Merchant

    Nancy Merchant2 dagar sedan

    I love this series I cry every time I can't wait till you and Dylan have your happy ever after

  21. Madelynn Skajewski

    Madelynn Skajewski2 dagar sedan

    Just want to say Nikki - I have been following for awhile and I cannot see you any other way but as "Nikki" that's who I have always known you as and that hasn't changed even with you sharing this. That's who you introduced yourself as and that's who I have always looked up to. When you made the video it was emotional to see your pain but in a way I'm like "and..?" It doesn't change anything or how I look at you- in my head I'm like let's get back to the makeup! :) I appreciate how you did it for yourself and didn't want to make it everyone's business because it's not. Loved you then, love you now, nothings changed. I don't look at u any different. :)

  22. Menalda Groeneveld

    Menalda Groeneveld2 dagar sedan

    Yeeessss girl!! You are super awesome ❤️

  23. Claudia Bronsteijn

    Claudia Bronsteijn2 dagar sedan

    Nikki ik vind je geweldig

  24. Benthe van Dijk

    Benthe van Dijk2 dagar sedan


  25. Rosanne Veldboer

    Rosanne Veldboer3 dagar sedan


  26. leah brown

    leah brown3 dagar sedan

    I’ve watched so many of Nikkis videos This is the first episode I watched , I went back and watched the first one again, an amazing story told by a beautiful woman🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

  27. X Knight

    X Knight3 dagar sedan

    This is so moving. I am moved to tears. I thank you for being you and helping people to understand what this process is like for others. ❤

  28. Mann Sharma

    Mann Sharma3 dagar sedan

    Omg Nikki I love u u are awesome ... Amazing 😍😍😍🤩😍🤩⭐👑⭐

  29. Kimmy Ball

    Kimmy Ball3 dagar sedan

    I know its none of our business but im super curious as to what Dillions reaction was when she told him! I do want to say that she is one of the strongest people I have ever seen!! For her to make that video had to have been so beyond scary!! ❤❤❤

  30. Maria Joseph

    Maria Joseph4 dagar sedan

    Such a Darling🥰😍

  31. Bere garcia

    Bere garcia4 dagar sedan

    Omg your bestfriend ❤ love her That's what a bestfriend should do same as your real supporters. Anyone else doesn't matter are people you don't need in your life

  32. NARA Qiem tan

    NARA Qiem tan4 dagar sedan

    I ❤ u nikkie

  33. Alissa Habachi

    Alissa Habachi4 dagar sedan

    I think it’s absolutely disgusting and vile that someone would blackmail her about something this sensitive. This was none of our business and Nikkie would tell us when she is and was ready.

  34. Breanna Honeycutt

    Breanna Honeycutt4 dagar sedan

    I was in tears 😭😭😭 it's a amazing I just starting transitioning last year and it's been hard but I made it and Nicki you are changing our community

  35. Crisa Lis

    Crisa Lis4 dagar sedan

    Nikkie's best friend is truly an amazing person, she didn't even feel betrayed despite the fact that Nikkie hid the truth from her for such a long time. She's so lucky for having such a great best friend.

  36. Kenna Ndir

    Kenna Ndir4 dagar sedan

    It's so sad that she has to feel like she has to apologize for not telling anyone. She really doesn't. We love you Nikkie.

  37. Tara Pelaccio Ellis

    Tara Pelaccio Ellis4 dagar sedan


  38. Ian Go

    Ian Go5 dagar sedan

    I LoVE YOU Nikie 💕💕💕💕💕

  39. Tasha Charnetzky

    Tasha Charnetzky5 dagar sedan

    I just wanted to say this is the first video I’ve seen of your vlog, and 1) your mother is GORGEOUS, 2) I LOVED watching your first video morph into you now, and 3) your voice is like HONEY and I love you to pieces, thank you for your ray of sunshine in this world!!

  40. Claire Bee

    Claire Bee5 dagar sedan

    Nikkie, you will always be Nikkie! A beautiful woman that does incredible make up 🥰

  41. Claire Bee

    Claire Bee5 dagar sedan

    Big props to mom 💕 She let her daughter be herself. She's wonderful!

  42. Tran Tran

    Tran Tran5 dagar sedan

    Linda is such a wonderful friend!

  43. Jae Lempriere

    Jae Lempriere5 dagar sedan

    OMG NikkieTutorials I have been watching you since I first found youtube and makeup tutorials and you inspired me and made really explore and find my love for makeup. You are a amazing person! your so strong and this coming out story is so sad but also you didn't have to be scared for one second because everyone that truly mattered and truly understood was was gonna continue to love and adore you for you and your work!. THANK YOU FOR BEING SO BRAVE AND THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU! MWAH XXXXX Also I've watched every single one of your videos and ive now got my own youtube channel which im gonna to juts have fun and explore and create. lots of love LGBTQ+ COMMUNITY LOVE

  44. Andrea Salazar

    Andrea Salazar5 dagar sedan

    I am pretty sure most of us including myself, keep seeing you as Nikkie, a strong independent woman, You are amazing and so strong we are very proud of you

  45. KoreAn A

    KoreAn A5 dagar sedan

    Thank you thank you thank u.....for sharing EVERYTHING..u inspire me more and more

  46. D'Arcy Jane

    D'Arcy Jane5 dagar sedan

    so so many tears....

  47. Jessica Tavares

    Jessica Tavares6 dagar sedan

    we love u 🤍🤍🤍🤍🌷

  48. Druvis Gerrits

    Druvis Gerrits6 dagar sedan

    You are a beautiful person inside and out. ❤ This world could use somr more of the unwavering love and support that your mom and best friend have for you. It's amazing. You are amazing.

  49. DD O

    DD O6 dagar sedan

    Nikkie was a born a woman. She was just trapped in the wrong body, now she is the most beautiful woman and queen ever!💕🤍🖤

  50. agvi13

    agvi136 dagar sedan

    proud of you

  51. Lalena Conklin

    Lalena Conklin6 dagar sedan

    That was probably the hardest decision to keep to yourself... I already thought you were wonderful but now knowing the whole story I think you're even more wonderful! Just be you 100% and never look back your past your past you're nothing but your future and it's okay to just look forward and it's okay to just be who you are no matter what it is... There's nothing wrong with any of us the only thing that we need to stop doing is judging one another we don't know each other stories we all Harbor secrets about ourselves! It's okay to just be ourselves you're a beautiful woman and you're Perfect Just the Way You Are and if you don't feel perfect just the way you are then change and become the perfect you and don't worry what the world thinks I know that sounds hard especially in this world at this day and age but that's what needs to change we have to stop worrying and living in fear about what the people around us are thinking! I say everybody just start being truthful with ourselves first and through that the truth will come... Much love to all and much love to you Nikki keep up the great work I'm sure you'll never see this but I hope you do!

  52. Tanya K.Beckerman

    Tanya K.Beckerman6 dagar sedan

    😭😭😭😭😭 it is so exciting!! You are amazing person ❤

  53. Michelle Leuch

    Michelle Leuch6 dagar sedan


  54. Brianna Bodin

    Brianna Bodin7 dagar sedan

    Brave beautiful woman. 💜💜💜

  55. Maddie Smith

    Maddie Smith7 dagar sedan

    That was one of the most powerful things I have ever seen. I love you so much Nikki. You will FOREVER have my support and most importantly, love.

  56. Mayra Macias

    Mayra Macias7 dagar sedan

    Can we talk about the remarkable not only mother, but woman Mama Tutorials is 🥰 Everyone needs a mom so loving, accepting and understanding 😍🥰

  57. Bae Goals

    Bae Goals7 dagar sedan

    The weird thing is..I still only see the woman Nikki. I’m trying my hardest to see someone else but I cannot because she’s truly walking in her actual truth.❤️

  58. Zara Castellaz-Faico

    Zara Castellaz-Faico7 dagar sedan

    So inspiring I love you even more, you’re amazing

  59. Brena Bolick

    Brena Bolick7 dagar sedan

    bro when she came out i was so so so excited. this is beautiful and i adore that she’s willing to let us all in on her story

  60. Stacy Trueshot

    Stacy Trueshot7 dagar sedan

    I didn't know and now that I do it changed nothing. I love Nikki. I think she is wonderful.

  61. Seven Vasquez

    Seven Vasquez7 dagar sedan

    MiNd BlOwn 💥💣

  62. Liz Kunst

    Liz Kunst7 dagar sedan


  63. FranCat Creations

    FranCat Creations7 dagar sedan

    Nikki! 😢😍 this series was amazing and you are amazing 💜

  64. Lady Grace

    Lady Grace7 dagar sedan

    I appreciate you 🥰

  65. Niknak

    Niknak8 dagar sedan

    I want more. Nikkie is so real, brave and full of life. She is gorgeous. There was no big lie, it was just the past.

  66. Angelina Federle

    Angelina Federle8 dagar sedan

    I love that track that is playing in your whip girl ;)

  67. XxnothingxX

    XxnothingxX8 dagar sedan

    I love nikkie for how she is not bc of her gender i love her bc she is so tallented she is so entertaining and funny and she is perfect as a boy and as a girl we luv you nikkie 💗💗

  68. MARZWERA06

    MARZWERA068 dagar sedan

    Her voice now reminds me so much of Kathrine Heigls!

  69. Jenny Di

    Jenny Di8 dagar sedan

    what an amazon mother, you are so bless this is amazing i will always will love my kids no matter what they want to be in life and i can understand your mother that love wow ❤️

  70. Jessica James

    Jessica James8 dagar sedan

    This is soooooo inspirational. have and always will be an empowered, beautiful women! Your past makes no difference. You are YOU. and thats.....amazing we love you girl

  71. Galaxy Light

    Galaxy Light8 dagar sedan

    Your layers helped me define my layers Thank you

  72. Iris Dorhout

    Iris Dorhout8 dagar sedan

    Omg your mom is so supportive 🏳️‍🌈💞

  73. Luka Runningwolf

    Luka Runningwolf9 dagar sedan

    I hate whoever blackmailed her. This was none of our goddamned business. She should have been allowed to live her life as she was. She should have been allowed to have that peace.

  74. Mommyhustlesharder

    MommyhustlesharderDag sedan

    autogynephilia Sexuoeroticism linked to the thought or image of oneself as female. Autogynephilia defines a transsexual typology and provides a theory of transsexual motivation: as Ray Blanchard proposed, male to female (MtF) transsexuals are either sexually attracted exclusively to men (homosexual) or are sexually attracted primarily to the thought or image of themselves as female (autogynephilic), and that autogynephilic transsexuals seek sex reassignment to actualise their autogynephilic desires. Blanchard’s types of autogynephilia • Transvestic-Fantasy of wearing women's clothing. • Behavioural-Fantasy of engaging in typical feminine behaviour (e.g., knitting with women). • Physiologic-Fantasy of pregnancy, breast feeding, menstruating. • Anatomic-Fantasy of having a woman's body, including partial autogynephilia, where the focus is on a mix of male and female body parts.

  75. Nandipa Ndlovu

    Nandipa Ndlovu9 dagar sedan

  76. Stephanie Murphey

    Stephanie Murphey9 dagar sedan

    She is soooo gorgeous ! Keep going girl love you!

  77. Camila Dellasanta

    Camila Dellasanta9 dagar sedan

    You're BEATIFUL girl, be you. Dont be afraid ❤

  78. Pirkko Davis

    Pirkko Davis9 dagar sedan

    Mad props to Nikkie’s mom. Saskia Spee allowed and encouraged Nikkie to become who she wanted to be. ❤️

  79. Janet Jj

    Janet Jj10 dagar sedan


  80. Kristen Aubin

    Kristen Aubin10 dagar sedan


  81. Sheara 46

    Sheara 4610 dagar sedan

    Kudo's to you for being strong, beautiful and living your best inspire so many people so shake off the haters because you' are a star!!

  82. Chelsea Bree Ann

    Chelsea Bree Ann10 dagar sedan

    NIKKIE!!! I would have never guessed but your story is unique and has molded you into who you are. Be proud of it. You are so amazing and such an inspiration. This is seriously incredible. Love you so much. 💓💓 It’s amazing to see you at your highest feeling great and on your way to even more amazing things. 💓💓

  83. tara pettigrew

    tara pettigrew10 dagar sedan

    I went and watched a lot of your videos from when you were younger!! Such a beautiful beautiful soul......I have not gone through the things you have in your life BUT you have still INSPIRED are truly beautiful inside and out..... Thank you Nikki thank you!!!! And KEEP SHINING

  84. Yaiza Sanchez

    Yaiza Sanchez10 dagar sedan

    i love you :') this was so beautiful.

  85. Zosia Aniela

    Zosia Aniela11 dagar sedan

    You're an extremely beautiful person inside and out. Thank you for being you.

  86. Jill Kolb

    Jill Kolb11 dagar sedan

    Loved this documentary series 💕🎉 Love you Nikkie 💛🧡❤💜💙💚

  87. CinnamonBasic

    CinnamonBasic11 dagar sedan

    Aww Nikkie. It never felt like a lie! I felt like your mom when I saw your coming out video. Like "she's every inch a woman!" I just see you as a woman, and was just surprised that your journey to become her was slightly different than I assumed before. 💞

  88. CinnamonBasic

    CinnamonBasic11 dagar sedan

    We have Nikkies mom to thank for allowing her to be herself and follow her passions 🧡

  89. DemiGreek Kateouras

    DemiGreek Kateouras11 dagar sedan

    i mean how are you that thick in that head to not be able to look at a person and not be able to tell this was dude? like come on. even I knew at first glance, and then didn't say anything because I didn't want to insult a possible female, but this isn't a female. that is a male!

  90. Rachel Hey

    Rachel Hey11 dagar sedan

    Just curious if she is still allowed in the Middle East?

  91. Kyra Lawson

    Kyra Lawson12 dagar sedan

    Nikki you are a beautiful talented successful women, I’m so proud of you!

  92. Elaina Bannister

    Elaina Bannister12 dagar sedan

    For all the people who are saying:”no one asked” or “it’s not a lie” or “ it’s not our business you just don’t have to bring it up” it’s not about that it’s about letting everyone know who you used to be to get it off of YOUR chest to make YOU feel better.😌

  93. Lindzy Earp

    Lindzy Earp12 dagar sedan

    the similarity between Swedish and German is scary lol I was like wait I understand a lot of this

  94. Frida Rodahl

    Frida Rodahl17 timmar sedan

    Uhm she speaks Dutch lol

  95. dagi72164

    dagi721642 dagar sedan

    That’s not Swedish - she speaks Dutch.

  96. Barbara Fischer

    Barbara Fischer5 dagar sedan


  97. Shanna

    Shanna10 dagar sedan


  98. Veronica Valdez

    Veronica Valdez12 dagar sedan

    Your and amazing soul 💕🙏🏼 keep doing YOU I’ve loved you for YOU since day one! Your so talented and gorgeous human being.

  99. Zandra Ignatov

    Zandra Ignatov12 dagar sedan

    Honestly I wish it was always like this. Its no ones business. Be yourself and call it a day. You don’t need to “come out” or admit anything to anyone. You are you and that’s it

  100. Milleny Rodriguez

    Milleny Rodriguez12 dagar sedan

    She did show us that if people love you they will accept you no matter what and no one can take it from you.

  101. Imelda Ronces

    Imelda Ronces12 dagar sedan

    Do you sometimes feel like you don't want to "Help" ppl with their journey? Because you don't feel like like you had that life before? Do you feel like you were never born a in the wrong body?

  102. clo

    clo12 dagar sedan

    we stan her mum

  103. Sophie W.

    Sophie W.12 dagar sedan

    She is so inspiring.

  104. valeria lopez

    valeria lopez12 dagar sedan

    you are beautiful and keep positive body positively

  105. Jacqi Lane-Leonard

    Jacqi Lane-Leonard12 dagar sedan

    Finally watched these and wow... Watching you growing in your journey. Seeing the splicing of you doing these videos over the years. You are an inspiration and you use your spark to show others how to find theirs. 💜