Losing My Little Brother | NikkieTutorials: Layers Of Me

Amidst the chaos and competition of her career, Nikkie gets hit hard by reality when her brother passes away. But after an intense period of grief, her life turns around for the better when she meets her new boyfriend. As Nikkie looks to find a new balance in her life, she is inspired to reveal the truth about her own story.
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  1. tyreesce lewis

    tyreesce lewis2 dagar sedan

    i love this video so much i had me wanting to cry alot.i love you nikkie!

  2. Kaonashi Yakuza

    Kaonashi Yakuza4 dagar sedan

    Damn i cried a lot ahhahahaha was not expecting that.

  3. Sophie Middelkoop

    Sophie Middelkoop5 dagar sedan

    I had to cry when Nikkie and Dylan huged at the mountain

  4. Rajyada Mishra

    Rajyada Mishra8 dagar sedan

    More Power To You .. !!! ❤❤

  5. Taylor Heart

    Taylor Heart8 dagar sedan


  6. Kayla McMichael

    Kayla McMichael9 dagar sedan

    You are the bravest, most selfless woman this world has been wonderful enough to know. You inspire people every single day all around the world. You’re a truly amazing person, inside and out. We need more people like you

  7. Is

    Is10 dagar sedan

  8. A J

    A J11 dagar sedan

    Mama tutorials is just the cutest human i stg😭❤️

  9. Zouhour Iglesias

    Zouhour Iglesias11 dagar sedan

    I'm so sorry for your loss. May his soul rest in peace

  10. Teachz

    Teachz11 dagar sedan

    I can also put myself in this place .. Unfortunately my brother also passed away so I know roughly what it feels like to lose a dear person from your family .. I have watched this before and each time a tear is released. Just love how you function with this.

  11. L Regan

    L Regan12 dagar sedan

    Nikki, I love that you're sharing the human layer behind the makeup goddess we all love. Thank you. Also, I didn't realize you are so tall. You are like an Amazonian goddess. My little 5'2" self is jelly.

  12. Alysha Resendez Luna

    Alysha Resendez Luna13 dagar sedan

    I’m so sorry for u girl u

  13. MsNikkieMichelle

    MsNikkieMichelle13 dagar sedan

    I love this woman so much. I remember watching her backkkk in the day, like when she got veneers and she was glowing and felt so confident and amazing and I remember being so happy for her and it’s incredible how far she came from then (and she was slaying it back then as well.) I cannot say enough amazing things about Nikkie, and I commend her for her bravery and fearlessness with sharing her feelings, emotions and just being raw. I wish her so much more happiness and success because she is incredible and strong and I just love her. 💞

  14. Sophia Gaffney

    Sophia Gaffney13 dagar sedan

    I started crying this is so sad I’m so sorry for your loss

  15. Eʅαʂƚιƈ Hҽαɾƚ

    Eʅαʂƚιƈ Hҽαɾƚ13 dagar sedan

    Heartbreaking.... I am so sorry for you and your families loss Nikkie.😔😢❤️💕

  16. ColorixtVlogs

    ColorixtVlogs14 dagar sedan

    Simplemente sin palabras😭 eres admirable😘

  17. TEMI

    TEMI14 dagar sedan

    what- She is so tall, I did not expect that

  18. Kristine Lamonday

    Kristine Lamonday17 dagar sedan

    Thank you for sharing...during a dark time, your brightness shone down on my heart today...❤️⭐️

  19. Jay Rapiz

    Jay Rapiz18 dagar sedan

    Started sobbing when she carefully recalled her last moments with Mikai 🥺

  20. Sunny Kon

    Sunny Kon19 dagar sedan


  21. Tayla Joy Pasqualle

    Tayla Joy Pasqualle19 dagar sedan

    how tall is she, I'm obsessed with her height😍

  22. Jo Lerdsiritanarak

    Jo Lerdsiritanarak20 dagar sedan

    i'm crying while watching this

  23. Fiona Hahn

    Fiona Hahn22 dagar sedan

    Okay, I cried the whole video 🥺💔

  24. Leo O.

    Leo O.22 dagar sedan

    why are the views hidden Ms Patty Lamar

  25. Naomi Lykova

    Naomi Lykova23 dagar sedan

    May he rest peacefully I’m so sorry

  26. levi

    levi23 dagar sedan

    Damn, she's really tall

  27. Laura Cruz Singer

    Laura Cruz Singer23 dagar sedan

    This made me cry

  28. Rere Alkandrie

    Rere Alkandrie23 dagar sedan

    هل انا الوحيدة الي ما كنت ادري انها يت الكويت 😂

  29. Alex cobain

    Alex cobain24 dagar sedan


  30. Kartoffel __

    Kartoffel __24 dagar sedan

    I am not really a follower of nikkie, but this is soo sad and I, as a big sister, can not imagine the pain she and her family were going through. That she get through this is SO strong and unbelievable. ❤

  31. _leonora_ _

    _leonora_ _24 dagar sedan

    Family and real life is important. No likes.

  32. J N K

    J N K25 dagar sedan

    She’s just amazing, such an inspiration for all!! ❤️❤️❤️🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

  33. shawty

    shawty25 dagar sedan

    Nikki you are so strong! Truly a beautiful soul

  34. celestine steele

    celestine steele26 dagar sedan

    sorry about ya brother

  35. Jennifer Reynoso

    Jennifer Reynoso26 dagar sedan

    Am I the only one who thinks she sometimes sounds just like Khloe Kardashian?

  36. sofia briones

    sofia briones26 dagar sedan

    the fact that Dylan doesn't care about views or anything really my respect for Nikki and Dylan with always be this hight 📶

  37. Marije Veldpape

    Marije Veldpape26 dagar sedan

    Ik vind het zo jammer voor je 😣😣😣😣😗😘😘😗😗😘😗😘😗😘😗😘😗😗😘😘😗😣😣😣😣😣😣😣❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤💖💖💖💖💖💖

  38. Kat Rita Dimitriadis

    Kat Rita Dimitriadis26 dagar sedan

    Humans have the ability to be so amazing. Everyone clapping as Nikkie reached the finish line, all that support, kindness and love; I burst into tears. Thanks for showing us you in this series Nikkie. You give so many of us the courage to go forth with authenticity

  39. Jack Ames

    Jack Ames26 dagar sedan

    nikkie i am so sorry, i sibling bond is so speacial.

  40. Jesselyn Gonzalez

    Jesselyn Gonzalez27 dagar sedan

    Poor baby. RIP Mica.

  41. Disha Sarkar

    Disha Sarkar28 dagar sedan

    Everyone needs a Linda in their life.

  42. garcio budownik

    garcio budownik28 dagar sedan

    I’m not crying , you are

  43. MaryMary 15

    MaryMary 1529 dagar sedan

    Just watched this episode and you talk about your brother being the strongest person you know, well sister he learned from the best..... you! You are a strong resilient person. Keep the positivity going. Love you.

  44. Alejandra Garcia

    Alejandra Garcia29 dagar sedan

    Wow if they only knew !!! 😯

  45. Lizbeth Ames

    Lizbeth Ames29 dagar sedan

    It's my first time watching your video and I love you.

  46. Iman A.

    Iman A.Månad sedan

    Wow. This made me cry so hard. Nikkie is SUCH a STRONG and Influancal Woman! I Respect her so much!

  47. Liz S

    Liz SMånad sedan

    Oh Nikkie, you’ve ruined my makeup 💜🥺

  48. Tamara Jovičić

    Tamara JovičićMånad sedan

    I love you 💙

  49. uzuki

    uzukiMånad sedan

    You so cool love you

  50. Angie Kennedy

    Angie KennedyMånad sedan

    And here I am, crying in my bed in the middle of the night.

  51. Se Al

    Se AlMånad sedan

    That touched me really hard

  52. Holly Easton-Lankester

    Holly Easton-LankesterMånad sedan


  53. Meagan Sandhaas

    Meagan SandhaasMånad sedan

    I lost my little brother in February of 2020, thank you I needed this ❤️

  54. Green Eyes

    Green EyesMånad sedan

    So sorry my condolences

  55. Elise Tsang

    Elise TsangMånad sedan

    So sorry to hear about your lost I know how it feels i lost my mother in law a week ago it was sad she be rest in peace hope you be ok Nikki love u ❤️🥲

  56. Mahra Alkhoori

    Mahra AlkhooriMånad sedan

    This is sad😭🥺😞❤️💔

  57. Melissa Lopez

    Melissa LopezMånad sedan

    Omg I’m crying rn it hurts to lose a loved one and just know we all love you and stay strong!❤️

  58. Grace B

    Grace BMånad sedan

    I am so sorry

  59. Emily Garcia

    Emily GarciaMånad sedan


  60. Wicked Weekee

    Wicked WeekeeMånad sedan

    Nikki♡ Come to South Korea plz!!♡

  61. 602

    602Månad sedan

    Why do you post something like that

  62. Zoe Christensen

    Zoe ChristensenMånad sedan

    Im not crying youre crying.

  63. Mehreen Irshad

    Mehreen IrshadMånad sedan

    So painful but u are a strong lady ❤

  64. julian vv

    julian vvMånad sedan

    i am crying as h*ll nikki i love you so much and i wanna meet you one day! and your fiance seems so sweet and you both absolutely only deserve the best! yall are literally goals

  65. Carla Pagan

    Carla PaganMånad sedan


  66. Jota Valentine

    Jota ValentineMånad sedan

    I'm sorry, but this program seemed garbage to me. (I'm not talking about this chapter, I'm talking about the entire program.)

  67. tan

    tanMånad sedan

    💕sending u love and light QUEEN !

  68. Widget824

    Widget824Månad sedan

    Love to you and your family.

  69. GachaFan UwU

    GachaFan UwUMånad sedan

    THIS IS SOMEONE I CAN TRULY BE PROUD OF! nikkie went through so much pain and it made her stonger and stronger, the part where she hugged Dylan and cried i broke into tears. SO PROUD OF YOU NIKKIE, LOVE YOU FOREVER! BE STRONG AND KEEP UR HEAD UP!

  70. Sarah Decaprio

    Sarah DecaprioMånad sedan


  71. Oliver Bain

    Oliver BainMånad sedan

    Omg girl u got me sobing like i cant rn. Like I cant even imagine how u could go through this pain and cary on. It is so motivational. I juat want u to know how much support u have form everyone around you even a imaginary world can help u.💞💗💖😭

  72. Sara Thomas

    Sara ThomasMånad sedan

    No masks?

  73. Isabel Hierck

    Isabel HierckMånad sedan

    I only cried while this video!!❤️❤️❤️I love you!!❤️❤️❤️

  74. Basya Chaya Moldavsky

    Basya Chaya MoldavskyMånad sedan

    Love you so sorry for your lost

  75. Alma M

    Alma MMånad sedan


  76. Gui James Amsterdam

    Gui James AmsterdamMånad sedan


  77. Stef V

    Stef VMånad sedan

    I usually never cry when there’s a sad story in a SEtoos video but seeing Nikkie cry just broke me down to tears. You’re such an amazing women don’t stop what you’re going 🥺❤️

  78. Carli Art

    Carli ArtMånad sedan

    I've seen this too many times and the only think that keeps going on my mind is that her mother is such a strong, wonderful woman. Love you mamma tutotials

  79. 사라 스타

    사라 스타Månad sedan

    that broke my heart i m crying

  80. Diana Lavric

    Diana LavricMånad sedan

    Last year I lost my last grandmother and in 2019 I lost my other grandmother. The fact that they both passed away made me feel so empty because when I will have kids, they already won't have no grand-grandmothers. Now life is moving on and I'm moving on.

  81. BlueEyed Scorpio

    BlueEyed ScorpioMånad sedan

    Ever since my mom has passed away from three types of cancers.. my life has NEVER been the same without her! I loss my father at 12.. It really does take a toll on a person to get through the years without their loved ones by their side!! 💔💔

  82. leah brown

    leah brownMånad sedan

    I’m trying to hold in my tears during this and it was just so nice that you could honour your brother in such an amazing way! 😭🙌🏻🙌🏻

  83. Samantha

    SamanthaMånad sedan

    Dylan crying when she hugs her is peak boyfriend material. I feel like Nikki needs someone she can be 100% vulnerable like that with where they can cry together.

  84. Kattymie

    KattymieMånad sedan


  85. Sabrina Fernández

    Sabrina FernándezMånad sedan

    Girl, you made me cry A LOT

  86. Lyric grandwood

    Lyric grandwoodMånad sedan

    I personally do the lets turn of our brain thing and just shut everyone out to protect ourselves and it gets me nowhere and frankly just hurts more so I can sort of see where she comes from with that

  87. Vogel Vogeltje

    Vogel VogeltjeMånad sedan

    im so glad im learning dutch.

  88. Mariam Khalil

    Mariam KhalilMånad sedan

    I’m so sorry for your loss. My condolences

  89. The Hashtag Foodie

    The Hashtag FoodieMånad sedan


  90. A L A N S A R O Z I

    A L A N S A R O Z IMånad sedan

    Keep inspiring people nikki!!! I love u ❤️❤️❤️

  91. Taylor Reynolds

    Taylor ReynoldsMånad sedan

    I’m literally sobbing. My sister passed just over two years ago and it still rough...

  92. Casey klee

    Casey kleeMånad sedan

    So proud of you sis

  93. Adnil

    AdnilMånad sedan

    I send your way and your family my preyers and a big hug 🤗

  94. Lolo Taylor

    Lolo TaylorMånad sedan

    Someone PLEASE!! WHERE have I seen this woman before?

  95. Sarah Ferree

    Sarah FerreeMånad sedan

    Okay completely off topic I’m sorry but I didn’t realize how tall Nikkie was until this video wow you’re gorgeous and just carry yourself with so much power and confidence. I aspire to be confident like you.

  96. Ayvorie

    AyvorieMånad sedan

    Anyone know the song thats playing as shes doing that mountain climb?

  97. Samra Kazi

    Samra KaziMånad sedan

    Dont worry your brother is in heaven he is resting

  98. Aarya Sathe

    Aarya SatheMånad sedan

    I am so sorry for you nikkie but everyone has to go some day so be strong i know how it feels 😔🧡

  99. Priscilia Dobbelaere

    Priscilia DobbelaereMånad sedan

    Nikki ik heb ook iemand verloren 😥😥ik negeer het een beetje maar ik denk dat dat niet oke is. Maar ik ga gewoon door met mijn leven

  100. F.x323

    F.x323Månad sedan

    This is beyond embarrassing, as a person from Kuwait I am extremely sorry for how you felt after that happened. But I don’t think that’s the reason (unless that’s what they told you), but it was because there were many women in that area, and in here men and woman can’t be mixed up together when in large groups (for religious reasons but also for safety reasons). I’m not trying to justify what happened at all! I love you sm Nikki and you are one of my biggest inspirations. Again I’m so sorry for what happened :( it’s so embarrassing, I got excited when I saw my country’s name in the video but so disappointed in what happened after